I want to thank you for not loving me the way that I wanted to. I want to thank you for giving up on me for leaving me. I had so much pain and sorrows that I carried for 5 months. You left me empty handed and let me cried too much. I have so much love to offer you but you choosed to leave me and be with someone else. Do you know how hurt I am seeing you with someone else? Knowing the fact that I love you much you and I am really hurting but you still have the courage to show me you are happy with her. Doing sweet things to her on my face. Taking pictures in front of me. You told our friends that you we have to stop because we're nowhere to go. Do you remember when you told me that what happened to us was a big mistake? Do you know how I felt that time? Have you ever felt the pain that I felt the time I visited you and leave me because your new found friend was waiting for you and was about to pick you up? I called you and you told me that you are watching movie with her that time. Have you ever thought what would I feel? Have you ever considered my feelings? Did you ever care for me? You know how much I love you that time. I gave you almost everything. I have loved you more than the air that I breathe. I gave you my full attention. I sacrificed a lot and decided to stay with you knowing the fact that I do not have assurance on you. I devoted my time for you. I did a lot of things that I don't do for the sake of loving you. I still remember when you told me that you don't see yourself with me for the rest of your life. I used to dream of having you for all my life because I thought I knew you that much. I tried to protect you from all the lies and all the sufferings you gave. Despite the things you have done to me, I still cared and covered you up from my friends. But you know what? I am so grateful because when you left, I gained a lot of friends..friends that are true and I realized how lucky I am for having them. And I knew who my real friends are and who to trust. I am grateful because there are lot of blessings came to me since you've been gone. If you did not leave, I wouldn't find the real meaning of life and I've realized that "if God asked you to let go of someone or something that is important to you, just let it go even it is hard because He will give you someone or something better in His time." I realized how blessed I am now. I know that you have loved me though it's not enough to continue what we have started. I want to thank you for all the good things you have done to me. For taking care of me specially when I was sicked. Thank you for showing me the true meaning of love. Thank you for being so sweet to me when we are still together. Thank you for all the time you spent, for being my comfort, for being generous, for being so kind to me, for being so patience. I understand you though I was really hurt. We can't insist a thing that is not possible to happen. As what they say everything happens for a reason. I know that you are happy right now and I am so happy for you. I want you to know that I don't regret loving you and giving you everything. I am sorry if I didn't let you go too soon. I am sorry for I made it harder for you. It is not that easy to let go of someone you loved most..of someone you devoted your time and life with..someone you loved more than anything else in this world. But I am still grateful because once in my life, I met you and have you in my life though you are not legally mine...once in my life there is a guy who took care of me. I understand that you did not mean to hurt me. I understand that there are times that you're being thorned between the situations. Nobody wants to be hurt and hurt anyone. I just want you to know that I am over it and you are forgiven and I hope you have forgiven me too for the things I have done. My heart has broken and I couldn't bare the pain seeing you with someelse, but now it starts to heal the pain, you know that I won't forget you but I won't mourn for you anymore. You might regret knowing me but I don't. Thanks for everything. Thanks for not loving me the way that I want. I found more strength and I am happy for what I am right now. I pray that we'll be happy separately. Stay Happy and God bless!
"Why'd I play the fool
Go through ups and downs
Knowing all the time
You wouldn't be around
Or maybe I like the stress
Cause I was young and restless
But that was long ago
I don't wanna cry no more"
