I came up with this poem last September 10, 2008. During that time, I am really struggling spiritually and financially. I was back in the Philippines last June with an empty pocket so I don't know what to do to pursue my heart's desire and that is to be a full-time missionary. I even planned to sell the lot my father gave me just to support my expenses but I it wasn't His time yet. Yes, I am willing to sell all I have for my Precious Yahweh and my Lord Jesus Christ. I am crying every night with my tormented heart. During those times I am having problems supporting my fare and all the expenses though my sister Whay is helping me but most of the time we are short and I am ashamed to borrow each time I go to church so I am tortured mentally and spiritually. I also talked to our eldest sister to sell my property but she refused maybe because she is not agree with my plans. I've been crying every night to the Lord and pouring my heart out and telling Him that I will still obey and follow my calling no matter what happens so I composed this poem. This is really what I feel that day and I thank God for giving me wisdom for writing the poem.
I Will (No Matter What)
Gayle Galang
You are the strength through my struggles
You are the peace through my troubles
You are the joy through my sorrows
You are the hope through my worries
In the midst of the storm, You soar with me
To win my battles, You fight for me
When I lose my way, You walk beside me
When I stumble and fall, You carry me
You always provide for me in times of need
You understand me most and stay at my side
You were always been my very Best-friend
You never condemned me but give me love so kind
Words are not enough to thank You for all You've done
What I am and what I have to You I owe
No matter what it costs and takes I'll still follow
My love and my life I offer to You alone
I will be lost without Your guide
I will be nothing without Your love
Only Your grace is what makes me survive
Your will I'll obey and mine I'll set aside
I truly love You my dear Lord
Losing You in my life I can't afford
Everything is vain without You in my world
Your Word forever in my heart I will trust and hold
And because I waited and continue trusting Him, everything falls into places. Our leaders supported me financially and spiritually of course till the Lord answered my prayer. I am truly blessed for having the sisters in my life. They are truly great leaders and genuine women of God. God had lead me to this church and I am forever grateful for His faithfulness and never-ending love through the sisters and through all things that He is giving me most specially for giving me the strength, courage and all His spiritual blessings. He never failed me and never ceased loving me. He always leads me to the right people who have loved me and supported me, from China, Japan, and now in the Philippines and I am sure in Indonesia too when I get there in His time. I am truly glad to know that my Creator, my God, is giving me His attention. It is really amazing to know that a God like Yahweh is busy working in my life. He is always there for me despite of my short-comings. How can you deny and disobey that kind of God? I pray that I will be faithful to Him till the end of the age. To God be the glory and praise. And of course I am forever grateful too to my Savior, my Rock, my Salvation Jesus Christ. He'd been there for me all the time. He drawn me closer to the Father. He saved me not just the time He gave His life to the cross but He personally saved me each time I am in trouble, specially the time when I came to the point of wanting to die. I was depressed and devastated so I wanted to die and be with Him and with God, so I asked Him to take my life away. He visited me in my dream that same night and He breathe in me and from then on I became stronger and more encouraged and I will never ever forget that experience and all the visions He shown to comfort me and make me whole again whenever I am broken. It is my wish and prayer to be just like Him (Christ-like), to be a true Christian, to be a woman after God's own heart.
