Six months ago, Pastor Mar on his preaching told us to declare something that we really want to happen in our life. So I did and declared and claimed that I will work abroad in the mighty name of Jesus. The next day Bessie called me for the offer. I accepted it but I am still consulting the Lord if He really wants me to be here. I finally decided to go when I got the confirmation that I need to be in China. My 5 month stay here in China wasn’t that easy. I’ve been into lots of trials, emotional tortures, heart aches, troubles, loneliness, tests, frustrations, desperations, and all kind of pain you could feel. However, it was an excellent experience that I did not indeed regret. I’ve learned a lot from my experiences. I became closer to the Lord. I’ve loved my family more and more and became closer to them though we are literally/physically apart. I’ve learned to appreciate and love my friends more specially my best friends. I know that I will never find someone like Daneth, Sheng, Auh, Sharon, and Jhay as well as my AOL friends. Because I know no body could ever care for me than them, my family and the Lord. I’ve loved my father more and more though I am missing him and shed tears for him every night. I’ve realized how blessed I am for having such a powerful and loving God, an amazing family, and wonderful friends. The Lord never ceased working on my life and moving me. I may had tough times here and been into lots of pain but I am still grateful for my Lord never forsaken me. The God who brought me here will be the same God who will send and get me home safely. He continued on pruning me, teaching me, loving me, and forgiving me. This was the first time that I had an intimate relationship with the Lord. I never thought that I will feel Him, experience Him in my life in a way I didn’t expect. I couldn’t describe His love for me but it was perfect and unconditional. I just wish that I had this before but He’s been really kind for He gave me another chance. My life started to have a direction like I never had before. He’d been guiding me and stay with me all the time though I don’t listen sometimes and insist my will. Through all the tormenting moments I had, my Lord stayed with me. He’d been my comforter, my Father, my Savior, and my provider. I never told Him that I love Him more than the air that I breathe but I’ve said that to a guy. And now, I know and keep telling Him that I love Him more than anything in this world, more than my life. He fixed my chaos life and I owe Him everything I have. I will do my best to fulfill what I promised Him. I want to serve Him for the rest of my life. Wherever He will take me after going out of China, I will continue to serve Him and win more souls for Him. I will run the race till I will see Him personally. Sometimes, I am failing Him but He’s always reminding me and showing me His great love. I would never ever forget China for this is where I had the most painful yet wonderful experience in my life.
I would like to thank Gennaro for being a responsible, funny, loving, and kind supervisor. Senior Gianni, who’d been there always to help us and support us. Miss Karen, who’d been there for us and praying for us always. She was one of my inspirations on my ministry. She is a great servant and her experiences and teachings are moving me. Bessie, for helping me all the time. For her stories that made me laugh, her support and encouragements. I thank her for all the things she gave me. I’ll miss giggling with her and how we run and the excitement we feel whenever we see foreigners. We are like fools tripping foreigners. The laughters we had because she make fun of me because of my craziness like carrying grocery bags on my chest because it was too heavy and lot of things. Rodel, who’d been really helpful and supportive too. A great cook and concern brother. I thank him for being kind and sweet and for taking good care of us. For sharing what he has. For making me laugh always. Romel, who’s been really crazy but really kind. For watching over me while I am sleeping whenever we go in Hong Kong, for bringing my things. Though I am losing my patience because of his naughtiness, his endless non-sense stories, I am still grateful for knowing him. Though he is pissing me off most of the time, and serve as one of my trials in life, I am happy because he’d been really kind to me, he’s always there to listen for all my complains, my dreams in life and all. He cooks when I am not feeling well. Amy, for being such a good Chinese friend. I thank her for ordering food for me (because I can’t speak Chinese), for being my interpreter, for being there always whenever I need her. I will miss eating lunch with her and laughing while we are eating. Sally, for being a good secretary. Who keep on helping us for all the things we need in the office. Who never complained whenever we asked her a favor. Tammy, for being such a friendly and beautiful Hong Kong secretary. I thank her for all the help she’s giving, support and guidance whenever we go in Hong Kong office. Chowi, for making me laugh always and for making my day. She is our helper in the office. She loves talking to me though we don’t understand each other. Amy is my interpreter. Chowi treats me like her daughter. She is styling my hair, wiping my hands with tissue everytime we see each other in comfort room. I really love teasing her and giving her things. She always refused the money I am giving her so I am sharing her my food instead and she loves it and never stop thanking me. I will miss her really. My other Chinese co-employees, that make me laugh everytime we eat lunch. Suki, was really funny. Everytime I laugh she’s telling me not to laugh at her haha. I said, she must be proud because not all people can make me really happy. I am waiting for her to finish one time we ate lunch together she said I have good manners. Her English was really funny. Whenever I talk to her she keep on asking me to repeat it she’s always telling she is slow on listening English. She is really funny but indeed with a good heart. Very appreciative, always telling me I am lovely. Wow! You know what makes her really funny? She fell from her chair twice this month and we all ended up laughing but she never get mad but laugh with us and start talking so fast in English that you wouldn’t understand. Jacqueline, very appreciative too. She always notice my cheeks, telling me she likes them because they are rosy. She is very beautiful. I like her face really not typical Chinese girl. I also love talking to her, very good English accent and really friendly. She’s sharing her food to me too. Leena, very beautiful Chinese woman but when she talks oh my goodness her voice sounds like a man’s voice but she is very kind too. Michael, wwwooo! He looks like Jackie Chan. I love his face really cute hehe. He invited us just last week for a dinner to celebrate because he just got married. When we arrived at the resto, his wife wasn’t there yet. I am telling Romel, I can be his bride even just for tonight. Crazy me! Elle, for being such a sweet and funny friend. I’ll surely miss this girl. She’d been there for me always. She always listen to all my dramas in life specially when I am telling stories about a friend that I love so much. I’m gonna miss sleeping over her place. I miss the food she’s bringing whenever she is visiting us. I’ll miss eating at McDonalds with her, bowling with her, watching movies with her. I’ll miss her jokes and stories and of course our friendship. And lastly, my Ate Cecile. She’d been a great sister to me, adviser, listener and all. I’m gonna miss her so much. I’ll miss our chit-chat, laughing till midnight, movies we used to watch, TV series that we love watching specially The O.C., the food that we both love, sneaking out to buy chocolates, and the fruits. I’ll miss removing the tiny white particles from her scalp, removing her dead and white hair, giving her massage till she sleeps and her sweet and funny voice when she’s asking me for a massage. Her complains and stories about her boss’ wife. How she reacts when Romel and I tease her. How happy she is when the food we are eating was good. Her reaction every time I treat her and ask her what she wants to eat. I keep on telling her that when I ask her what she wants to eat that means I’ll treat her and she is really shy so I have to force her hehe. I really love her so much that is why I am taking good care of her as my own sister. I’ll miss going out with her and all the things that we shared that I will never ever forget. Her cuddles and gazes. She’s always staring at me and when I ask her why she always say “because you are so cute”. Then I’ll ask, are you pregnant? We ended up laughing all the time. I’ll miss how I drive her really crazy and make her laugh whenever I am losing my sanity because of a guy. I’m sure I’ll cry when we depart. She is the main reason why I enjoyed my stay here despite of all my problems.
What else will I miss? Oh of course I’m gonna miss watching my favorite TV series. I’ll miss The O.C. (My all time favorite. I will never see Ryan, Seth, Summer, Marrisa, and Mr. and Mrs. Sandy Cohen again. That makes me really sad. I am addicted to this show), Medium, Life As We Know It, CSI Miami, CSI New York, CSI Florida, Point Pleasant, Without A Trace, Alias, David Rocco’s Dolce Vita (David is my crush. He is an Italian and his smile and his eyes drives me really crazy), Cold Case, 10.5, and more. Oh Seth my American friend. I promised him a date when he’ll be back but when that time comes, I am out of here. It’s really funny how we met Seth. Bessie, Rodel, Romel, and I were on our way to the grocery store to buy something we can cook for dinner. Rodel came in first and told us to wait for him at the lobby. Then Romel and Bessie came in and saw Seth. They were amazed because he can speak Mandarin fluently. I did not notice him but when he came out, he is staring at me. I wonder why, then he looked at me again while he is walking away. Then looked back again then I said Yes? He came back immediately and approached us. Then he asked from what country we came from. Bessie said Philippines, he answered yeah I know that you are not Chinese the moment that I saw her (looking at me) I know she’s not. We talked and he asked for a calling card and gave us his. We started e-mailing and chatting from then on. He asked me for a date when he will go back in Foshan because he is on Shanghai. I said yes but I have to bring along my friends. He is really funny and gentle. And of course I’m gonna miss Ashay. He is really funny and naughty but really sweet and gentle kid. I will miss treating him at McDonalds and playing badminton and bowling with him. I will Daniel. He is Ashay’s friend from Brisbane Australia. We chat everyday and I enjoy it though he is only 12. I will surely miss his messages that makes me laugh. He is also a smart kid like Ashay. He is so cute and I’ve asked him once if he has older brother but sorry to say he has none haha.
Despite of all the heart aches, I have learned a lot from here. Other than loving my family and friends more, I met a lot of friends. I became closer to the Lord and my relationship with Him is growing which is the greatest. I cook before but I’ve learned lots of menu from Chinese, Filipino, Australian, and Italian. I am now eating green leafy vegetables and I know I’m gonna make my mama proud of that because she used to forced me to eat vegetables now she will be surprised for sure when I get home. I discovered Christianster through Bessie and I met lots of Christian friends here. I met and became closer to Francis and Patrick who’d been there for me always when I need someone I could talk to. I remember last time that I was really down and I am crying here at office and thank God they were there to comfort me and best friend Daneth of course. Francis was really sweet and even asked me if he could fetch me at the airport but I refused to because my sister will do. Patrick who’d been a brother to me was always there whenever I feel like crying. I will meet them when I get back and I am so excited. Then there was Rizza. I never heard from her from a long time. She was one of my best buddies in high school and I am glad we were able to catch up with each other. And I am so blessed because she is also a Christian now. I am also able to catch up with my high school friends specially Mitch. We belong in one group in high school and Rizza too. Mitch and I were both on dance group called Hi-Tech Movers. I am also excited to meet her again and we are planning to go out when I get back. I found so much time to update my blog and share my experiences and share the gospel through it and through e-mail and chat. What I can learn and share about the Lord is more important to me than any other things in this world. When you die, He will not ask you what programs you know. I thank the Lord for giving me a chance to be part of Praise and Worship and a chance to lead it and preach which I always dream of. Daneth and I were able to catch up, love, and appreciated each other more. I am able to share her my experiences and share her my ministry. And she is there to comfort me always and help me in any way she can.
I will never ever forget China because I’ve been a strong a woman here. So where will I be after China? Staying good in the Philippines, Japan, Australia, Canada, back in China? Who knows only God knows. Wherever He will take me I know that is what best for me and that is His plan for me. He will open another door for me that is for sure. I’ll wait and see then obey.
